The pangs of love.....have flatlined

Its been a while since I have felt that feeling of love or just that feeling. You know the one I am talking about. Its hardly describable without being cliche. The feeling where no matter how bad you feel when you are round someone you feel better. That feeling you have when you realize you could talk to this person for hours about a nail. Nothing specific but just talk about the nail. Sure you are two boring people but you know that you are boring together. You are one boring entity now. The feeling that no matter how unfunny what you say is the other person is going to laugh, because they are probably the only other person in the world who gets it. That person you just connect with.

I have felt the feeling but I have never felt the connection where the other person feels it too. Its been so long since I even felt it on my end. I feel like what if I am just one of those people who is single till they die. I don't want to be that guy. I don't worry about these things. Worrying gets you nowhere and serves no purpose.

I admittedly have no real idea how to meet someone. I couldn't tell you right now where I would even go to meet someone. I know its my physical appearance which is part of me not being an instant chick magnet. I won't lie to myself about it. Yet, I know there are times when that never mattered.

Anyway, I am just really into writing about what I am feeling or is on my mind.


On another note:
Nathan, Am I really anarchistic?